On a lighter note to my usual writing, I was reflecting on my day to day battle to try and remain sane in what appears to be an increasingly insane world.
I know we as ‘ energetically sensitive ‘ individuals often feel alone and isolated at times. I was thinking that it’s not really surprising all things considered.
I find a simple conversation with other people something of a challenge.
When I am asked by friends and family how I am today, my natural and honest response would be –
” On reflection, I’m trying to ground myself a little as I feel a little energetically unbalanced, I may have to sit quietly for a while, perhaps use some Nag Champa as I find that helps “.
Also when someone asks what I had been doing last night, my answer should be –
” I was reading Fritjof Capra’s book The Web of Life and his take on deep ecology and later I sat on the porch taking in the beauty of dusk “.
Someone may say on a rather stormy day ” Isn’t the weather dreadful? ”
My probable natural response would possibly be –
” No, I think that’s it’s truly amazing. The way the wind blows through the landscape seeming to catalyse Nature’s natural cycles almost to a frenzy “,
Such responses, when stated, usually elicit an awkward silence from the individual. Followed by an avoidance of eye contact, a barely audible, however polite muttering as they make their excuses and leave the conversation.
Also my more obvious predilections and preferences are queried by others e.g.
– Why don’t you get your haircut ( I have long hair)
– Why are you vegan / vegetarian?
– What do you mean you don’t choose to drive?
– Why did you go on protest marches in London to protest against government policy?
– Why did you attend the anti vivisection rally?
Just as well most people don’t know that I occasionally talk to trees, homeless people and spirits.
So yes, life is a challenge when you don’t really fit in.
However, I much prefer to be myself.
In the words of Carl Jung, I will continue to individuate ( pupate?), with only the occasional sojourn into society.