Is it really only me?
Am I the only one who stops to stand and stare.
Sitting outside the cafe in the chill Autumn air, I watch the city life hum around me.
It’s almost as if no-one else is conscious, the pavements and roads teem with purposeful human activity. Again I find myself on the outside looking in.
So many people, so many stories. All apparently oblivious to each other as each individual seeks to fulfill their own worldly goals.
The suited businessman walking briskly whilst negotiating with a colleague on his mobile phone. Locked in to his work as a small cog is into a machine.
The young male adolescent in the hoodie on the street corner. His almost translucent skin, drawn eyes and scrawny frame hold testament to a life given to avoiding traumatic memories. A life of numbing his still raw hurt by the use of anything that even slightly dampens his pain.
The tired, drawn looking waitress busying herself with the neverending flow of serving and cleaning. Working her life away twelve hours a day to provide a still meagre material existence.
The thirty something female feigning lasciviousnesss outside a half seen doorway. She tries to catch the eye of any passing male willing to exchange money for sharing a fleeting moment of physical intimacy. Her eyes once warm and sensitive now as hard as her heart had become through years of being a passive recipient of what life had to offer.
I feel a heaviness in my heart as I watch these individuals go about their day. It is said that we are all on our own path, myself included. Certainly, I sincerely hope that everyone finds their peace but it is difficult to imagine when people live their lives in such a way.
There can be no judgement of them as I feel we all are, in some way, a product of our genetic predilections and our personal history. Like seeds cast to the wind, we grow where we find ourselves. Some souls will flourish amongst familial unconditional love and attention and some will starve.
The less fortunate may be subject to the opposite. Low self esteem and feelings of worthlessness can infiltrate ones being when raised in an emotional desert.
This often carries on into adult life, shaping personalities and whole lifetimes.
My sadness comes from knowing that this could have easily been so different.
Every human soul is valuable, everyone has a spiritual spark inside of them no matter how overlaid with pain and anguish.
I have to resign myself to only being able to do my small part amidst this world. I simply hope that whatsoever my actions in my day to day existence go a little way towards making the world a better place for others.
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Every effort counts when our interconnectedness is taken into account. Simply acknowledging these Others can change their lives for the better, even when words are not exchanged. Your empathy and compassion are real, your honor of them freely given, without judgment or expectation. That can only aid them in the end. Kudos, my friend, for owning your gifts and sharing them.
Hi you yet again 😀
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Yep. Just getting caught up on what I’ve missed. 😁