Your eyes are, after all, the gateway to your soul.
All the past hurts, pain, joy and love you have experienced are their for those who can ” see ” to see.
You have battled for forty years, first to try and save yourself then to save close friends, family and children. To protect them, to feed them physically and emotionally.
Despite all the physical and emotional scars you have received over time , you have stood strong.
You have lived your life without religious belief or any crutch to keep your spirit aloft. Your religion has been simply of having a pure and compassionate heart. A natural, uncomplicated spirituality which resides in your human soul, untouched by the mind, one in which your actions have always reflected your innermost self.
The years have taken their toll, physically and emotionally. At this very moment you need a crumb of the love you have given to be returned. Your heart needs to feel warmth and gentleness of another, someone who can see you. Someone who recognises your strength and your suffering, who completely accepts you as you are.
In whose eyes reflect deep human compassion, compassion that will be eternal and unwavering.
An unspoken acknowledgement of ones truth, of being accepted unconditionally as a human being, in all their own raw vulnerability.
Once received, your mind and body visibly relax, you no longer have to pretend to be fine. All the energy utilised to maintain the facade of being able to cope is released.
You know that you will never be truly alone, that there will really be someone who cares and understands.
And if warmth and compassion can reside in one individual then it must reside in others.
That there is always hope. That despite how desperate the situation, if one looks hard enough, trust in humanity can be restored. It is never always going to be easy, but having made that human connection, there will always be hope.