It’s been awhile since I wrote anything. Mainly because I have found myself dragged along into the mechanistic world of working long hours in order bills and maintain a lifestyle that I no longer particularly want. On my days off I have lived a kind of burnt out existence of mainly resting ( in part due to my diagnosis of M.E. / CFS) and not even having the energy to enjoy anything.
The reason why I carry on is because I am married and have a young son, therefore as the main bread winner I feel this is my responsibility for the life choices I have made. However I must admit the lifestyle has ground me down and reduced my quality of life somewhat.
I am still an empathic, spiritual type guy though my connection to these essential elements has reduced due to the blunt forces that operate in such a nine to five environment.
I now have some time off and I can feel the weight of responsibility and working fall away leaving me to experience again the ascetic aspects of living. And also to again realise the simple beauty of being alive and in Nature.
The primeval, spontaneous birdsong emanating from the bushes. The gentle swaying of trees and foliage in the gentle summer breeze. The vast array of colours of the roses, blossoms, wallflowers and lilac. The lulling, comforting sound of insects as they busy themselves with the business of the day. The monochrome mountain like clouds moving slowly across the sky.
Life is so much of a gift with so much beauty to be witnessed yet it is so easy to forget. Wrapped up in our ever confounding thoughts, anxieties and automated responses we miss the outlandish reverent world in which we live.
After all we are as much a part of nature as a leaf, a buzzard, the rain and sunsets. There is no true separation only the one which we construct through our ego centric standpoint.
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