Although to others I appear as simply yet another human being amongst millions of other human beings. The expectation from them is that I too operate and act from a similar perspective. In that I will to some extent seek personal, ego related goals. That I will endeavour to make myself secure by the acquisition of material wealth. That I will have similar external interests involving media driven activities of which I am assumed to have a shared predilection.
This is the hard part, as I by and large do not.
Living within a society that lives out and expects individuals to adhere to an anthropocentric ideology is, for me, completely unnatural.
My empathic spiritual journey has now led to perceptual changes in the way that I experience the world around me.
I am as one with the Earth.
My human body forms the flimsiest demarcation of my soul, for my soul too is at one with the Universe.
Out in the forest the feeling is intensified.
In the wilderness, the air in my lungs once expelled becomes one with the wind. The breeze then wraps itself around my human form, caressing my hair and skin. Evaporating the thin sheen of sweat on my brow, which had once been part of one of the great oceans. Although the presence of blood, bone and sinew are to be found within me, they too are only borrowed. One day, upon my passing, I will again return to the Earth from whence I came and from which I have never truly been separated.
Even in my humanity I can sense the other.
The autonomic consciousness of the bee as it almost preturnaturally carries out its duties to ensure the survival of his hive.
The feral mind of the fox, raw and unencumbered by a superego seeks to satiate his hunger.
The various parts of the dense undergrowth, clearings and landscape that give rise to their own genius loci. That speak subtly of sublime nature spirits, evocations, spiritual communion and desperate entreaties to the ‘other’ world. For in these places the veil between the worlds is barely perceptible. One can easily visit other dimensions and planes of existence simply by being present.
I have no wish to return to my previous experience of life as a simple, egoic human. Indeed I feel that I could not if I wished to.
So if you see me around, please feel free to say hello as I have much to discuss and desire to hear of your thoughts. You will recognise me by my eyes, they have all the elements of the Earth therein.
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