An Infinite Journey…………?
It’s funny how life turns out sometimes.
If someone had said to me many years ago that I had empathic tendencies and these tendencies would greatly effect my life and who I would become, I probably would not have believed them. I understood however that I was different. I couldn’t understand why people behaved in certain ways or why they made the choices that they did.
There was literally no one that I could relate to on a personal level. Not that it made me unhappy, I just decided to go my own merry little way.
So after many years, many mistakes, wrong turnings and uninformed choices later, all has become somewhat clearer.
I am drawn to heal.
Be it people, animals or places. People with unresolved issues or are in some emotional pain always manage to catch my eye. They may be individuals who I have never met before but who seem to communicate their distress with the briefest of eye contact. Or others who, either consciously or unconsciously seek my acquaintance in order to enlist me at a later stage in our relationship.
Before I was aware of my ‘ sensitivity’, I would simply automatically do the necessary ‘ rescuing’, much to my regret. For many who seemed to need rescuing were not looking to be so. They simply needed me to fill a gaping emotional hole in themselves. I was simply a tourniquet to be used to dampen their pain and chronic sense of loss.
Also houses and certain places also drew me to them. Or more accurately, I was drawn to them. When I look back now to many places I have lived, it seems obvious that had a rather ‘ haunted’ feel.
Also here there seemed to be unresolved business but not of this time.
There were feelings of darkness, poltergeist activity, entities continually reliving past actions and visions of people and actions past.
It’s only over recent years that I have come to understand the link.
I find that for me there is no implicit definition of my abilities. I have a sprinkling of other ‘clairs’ too of varying degrees.
Despite all the difficulties I have experienced because of my sensitivities, I am truly grateful for their presence as they have me to develop personally and spiritually in a way I could not have imagined all those years ago.
However that only seems to be part of the journey. Still now I find that I discover other tendencies that I have or somehow developed.
I pick up on other people’s emotions and frequently they are amplified within my self. If they are miserable, I’ll feel devastated. If someone is angry, I will feel furious.
For instance, I was having a quiet beer in my local bar doing a little people watching. In walked two well built, muscular men who had had a little too much alcohol. I could tell instantly that they were looking for some target to rough up a little. Their gaze fell on me. For some reason I felt their anger ( I was unsure as to why they were so, it turned out they were soldiers back from a tour of duty).
It felt as if I somehow channelled their anger, increased it and ( very out of character for me) held their eye contact in an intense and challenging manner.
They then turned their attention elsewhere.
This was done completely automatically without a conscious thought from myself.
Also there appear to be occasional glimpses into other realms or sometimes a mix of realities occurs. Usually I will be somewhere and get a strong feeling or a picture in my head of how things looked in the past. Of people and activities long gone. Things that I thought to have been illusions I feel have reflected other realities.
I prefer the phrase ‘ energetically sensitive’ to describe my human traits. After all quantum physics has proven that all is energy and there is no real ‘ hard’ reality in terms of form.
Ancient cultures have also identified this to be true in varying guises i.e. Buddhism, Hinduism and Taoism for instance.
So let the journey of life continue for who knows, in a world of infinite possibilities what lies around the corner.